Another Day....

Another day has passed. Almost coming to an end. As I sit here and ponder things about my life, I wonder how I have been so lucky. I have a wonderful husband, a beautiful son and good job. I've been blessed, many many times. Caleb is almost a year old now, time sure has flown. I find myself thinking about his pregnancy, his birth and what things I would have done different. I can not say that I would have changed anything about my pregnancy. It was great. I can remember all the milestones that occurred. Like the first time I felt him move and really knew it was him. I was just shy of 15 weeks. I was sitting in my parents living room, getting ready to take a nap, as I was ever so tired. I felt this weird flutter, but I didn't think it was "the baby" as he was previously known until he was really a he. I was just about asleep, so I chalked it up to gas. Two weeks later, I was laying on my best friends couch, since I was house sitting as the newly weds were out of town, and I felt it again. The little flutter, I knew it was "the baby" How I remember such small details. Now he is a happy, healthy little boy, who is soon to be One year old. Oh how that makes me sad.

Long Overdue Update....Again....

Ok, so it has been over a year since I last posted here. I was surprised that I actually remembered what my log in and password were. Lets update this year in a nutshell (or I will atleast try to make it short anyway).

I believe the last time I posted was in October of 05. Which means I was still pregnant, and only about half way threw our pregnancy. In November, Jeff moved in to my parents house so that we could save money and get bills paid off.Jeff also proposed to me on Thanksgiving last year as well. December 1st we found out we were having a healthy little boy. Ofcourse, we know that nothing is for certain until he arrives save and sound. Fast forward to April, Jeff and I moved out of my parents and into an apartment. This apartment has turned out to be the worst one I have ever lived in. But, thats a whole other story. Jeff and I welcomed Caleb Garrett Wendt on April 19th, 2006 at 4:20pm weighing 8lbs 9ozs and he was 21 inches long. We had a long and complicated labor that ended in an emergency c-section. But we found that Caleb was perfect in every way possible. Caleb is now 11 months old. If you can believe that. I sure can't. He has grown so much. Jeff and I got married December 16th, 2006 in a small ceremony in Omaha. It was beautiful. Things are progressing well in my life. I am happy and healthy, and I have have a happy healthy little boy who is almost 1 year old. My husband is awesome and I love him more than anything.

Exciting night

Ok, it is just after 11 pm and I was laying on the couch watching tv when I felt the "flutter" again tonight...It felt exactly like the one about two weeks ago too...So now I am almost sure that it was the baby moving. It was awesome! I am still having a hard time believing that I am pregnant. I am hoping that seeing the baby in a couple of weeks will make it more real. I am still not showing yet, which I guess is a good thing...less time I have to wear maternity clothes. The wedding over the weekend turned out really well. So for as frustrated as I was, it was all worth it..the bride and groom are happy and thats all that counts. Our next doc appt is a week from tomorrow and then we get to schedule our big ultrasound! I am thinking that I am going to get my ring shortly...I am hoping that I get it on the 13th, we are going to a hockey game that night, and I think it would be neat to get it that night, but we will see..no need to get my hopes up...Anyway..I think I am off to bed...

Ugh....

Ok...I am starting to get a bit frustrated, and Ive realized that even if my best friend is getting married I will ask not to be the maid of honor and possibiliy not even in the wedding. I am not sure what has caused more of a damper on mine and Jamie's friendship, me being pregnant or me being a "crappy" maid of honor. Jamie and I had a little tiff through e-mail a few weeks ago, she felt that I was being a crappy maid of honor because I have stood her up for picking out flowers and her veil and as well the invitations. Well, Jamie has never really made me feel apart of these decisions anyway, she hadnt ever given me more than a few hours notice when she was going to do these things...She doesnt agree with me. I think she forgets that I work nights and she works days. There is a big difference in schedules there. I can not just get up and go do as Jamie pleases anymore. And again tomorrow is no different. I called the lady who is going to alter my dress today, and asked her when I could drop my dress off and I was under the impression that Jamie and I were going on thursday for her final dress fitting...well come to find out the appointment is acutally tuesday at 4:30 pm, but I wouldnt have known that had of not called about my dress. As of now, she still hasnt called to tell me. I am working tonight, and I have to work tomorrow as well. We'll see what time she calls tomorrow or if she just assumes that I know. I know that she has a lot on her mind, this being the week of her wedding, but I as the maid of honor you would think that I would be included in her plans....thats probably too much to ask. Maybe I need to step down as the maid of honor...its not that my heart isnt in it, I truly believe that maybe Jamie doesnt want me to be her maid of honor. The whold other issue of this is that the cost of this wedding is out of control. I spent a fortune on my dress. Jeff's tux is $175 just to rent the damn thing for the night.

As far as the pregnancy, all is going well...15 weeks and counting..I think I felt the baby move last night..but I am not sure...at any rate..I am back to work.....

Update....

Well, it is now the 16th of October. We have officially heard the heartbeat of our baby. Heartbeat was strong at 162. OB says that all is well. We are still waiting to hear from the realtor about the offer we made on a house in La Vista. So hopefully we should hear something by tomorrow afternoon at the latest. It still does not feel real that Jeff and I are going to have a baby. I still dont feel pregnant, so its hard to really believe that there is a growing life inside of me. Maybe once I start to show, it should feel different. I am thinking about possibily telling my brother tomorrow that he is going to be an uncle. I think that he will be very happy, or atleast I hope he will. My sister however, well I am not sure how she is going to react. I hope that she is happy, I also hope that she is not angry with me for not telling her till now. I wanted to make sure that everything was ok until I spilled the beans to everyone. I guess the next step is telling the rest of the extended family. I am not sure how they are going to react. Night for now. More later.

Strange Day

Well, today was sort of an odd day. I had an early start, well....for me an early start at 9 am to head to Target to get a bridal shower present. Then I came home and wrapped the present for my friend. The shower was from 2-4:30. Then I headed back home to grab scrubs, since it was time to go back to work after a long group of days off. Jeff was at his mom's house, so I figured that I would go over there to see him since I hadn't seen him all day. I get there at about 5:30, Jeff was down stairs on the computer, so I holler for him. 10 min go by, 20 min go by, and finally at 6 pm he decides to come upstairs...Well by then I was mad, I had to leave for work at 6:15. I was irriated because had I of known that he was going to spend the time on the computer I would have stayed at home and slept. So I get to work and have since started a busy evening, which isnt bad, just busy. So I get a break around 8:30 and decide that I would check my hotmail e-mail when low and behold an ex boyfriend that I hadnt talked to in 2 yrs decides to send me an e-mail asking what was going on in my life...STRANGE! I am not sure what that is all about, and I am not even sure where to go from here about that. Ahh...anyway, time to give meds, gotta run.

Long overdue update

Well, here we are in the midst of September and a ton has happened since I last posted. Lets start with the biggest news of all....I am pregnant, due April 17th,2006. As of today I am 10 weeks. This has seemed to cause a little bit of an uproar in my life, Jeff and I are still together and doing great. Now planning a wedding for Oct 06. I am currently living at my parents house to get some major credit card bills paid off. This was planned even before I found out I was pregnant. So hopefully, before this baby is born, I will basicly be debt free other than my car and student loans. My mom is speaking to me, however, my father has said a few words, but not many. I am still working nights, and enjoying it. Jamie's wedding is only about 40 days away and that has caused a little bit of a disturbance between her and I, as well as me being pregnant. This has hit our friendship a little harder than I expected, but we are doing ok. I am feeling ok for the most part, tired all the time, sick off and on. Had an uneventful first appt. Just the typcial pap smear and blood work. Next appt in 4 weeks. Will update later!